To you Mr:
The first time I laid my eyes on you.
The first time you smiled at me.
The first time you suprised me with 3 dozens of flowers.
The first time we talked.
The first time you texted me.
The first time we talked over the phone.
The first time you fetch me at home.
The first time we went to class together.
The first time you asked me on a date.
The first time you cooked for me.
The first time you met my whole clan.
The first time you held my hand.
The first time you kissed my knuckles.
The first time we laughed out loud.
The first time we stared at each other.
The first time we watched a movie.
The first time you kissed me on the forehead.
The first time you kissed me on my cheeks.
The first time you tell me that you're falling inlove with me.
The first time you hugged me.
The first time you confessed that you love me.
The first time we kissed under the moonlight.
The first time you'd been acting weird.
The first time you lied to me.
The first time you wrecked my heart.
The first time you deserted me.
The first time you chose her over me.
And now you're married to her.
At first, I can't believe that you chose to settle down with her. I even asked myself what's with her that I don't have. Honestly, I envy her coz she has you. She can hug and kiss you everytime she wants. She's the one who will grow old with you. Its been three months since you got married, yes freaking three months! I thought I already moved on and accept the fact that you're gone, that you're not coming back. But I'm wrong. I tried.. so hard.. :( But look, I keep on crawling back to you. My heart still wants you. There is a part of me that still waiting for you, hoping that one day you'll just knock on my door and tell me hey I'm back! I am lying if I'll say that I don't love you anymore coz hell no! I still love you unfortunately. I know its stupid and pathetic to stay inlove with you after all you'd done to me. Hello?! You just left and acted like we never existed. But ofcourse my heart is so stubborn and its still choose you. How can I unlove you? If my heart still beating for you. How I wish there is a unlove button inside my heart so that it'll stop beating. So that I'm not hurting and can peacefully sleep at night without dreaming of you. They said that in every life there is someone out there who is your biggest what ifs? The one who got away? But in another life you'll be given a second chance to make it right. Is it you? My one? Is this your purpose why you came into my life? Can we make it in our next life? Do we still have a second chance there? If that's the case maybe in another life, I can make you stay. So when that time comes, you won't be my one that got away.
At first, I can't believe that you chose to settle down with her. I even asked myself what's with her that I don't have. Honestly, I envy her coz she has you. She can hug and kiss you everytime she wants. She's the one who will grow old with you. Its been three months since you got married, yes freaking three months! I thought I already moved on and accept the fact that you're gone, that you're not coming back. But I'm wrong. I tried.. so hard.. :( But look, I keep on crawling back to you. My heart still wants you. There is a part of me that still waiting for you, hoping that one day you'll just knock on my door and tell me hey I'm back! I am lying if I'll say that I don't love you anymore coz hell no! I still love you unfortunately. I know its stupid and pathetic to stay inlove with you after all you'd done to me. Hello?! You just left and acted like we never existed. But ofcourse my heart is so stubborn and its still choose you. How can I unlove you? If my heart still beating for you. How I wish there is a unlove button inside my heart so that it'll stop beating. So that I'm not hurting and can peacefully sleep at night without dreaming of you. They said that in every life there is someone out there who is your biggest what ifs? The one who got away? But in another life you'll be given a second chance to make it right. Is it you? My one? Is this your purpose why you came into my life? Can we make it in our next life? Do we still have a second chance there? If that's the case maybe in another life, I can make you stay. So when that time comes, you won't be my one that got away.
See you in another life,
Miss kat
photo taken at Patapat Viaduct
No comments:
Post a Comment